Maybe I Can Manage This

[wire_mother]

I really want to come back to DW/LJ-style personal blogging. Facebook is where the people are, so it's important for me to stay in contact there, but the platform has so many problems that I want to try to spend more of my internet-social time here. Well, it's a matter of re-developing the habit, so I have to actually start doing it.

The main thing to report about myself lately is that I have been having issues slipping back toward depression, including some of the worst and more dangerous aspects of that. In addition, I've been very tired all of the time. Today, for example, I woke up to my alarm, turned it off and slept another two hours. Then I read a couple of chapters in The Lord of the Rings, set it aside, started up my computer to do some writing, and found out that there was a new update for LibreOffice. I installed that, then put my computer aside and promptly fell asleep until 9pm. I think that I will just turn my alarms off for the next few days and work on getting myself back onto a regular schedule.

Speaking of writing, I have three current projects. This is a problem, actually, as I sometimes can't decide on which project to work any given day. In addition, I have another project that will contribute toward a couple of the projects that I have running, so maybe I should also spend some time working on that one. Unfortunately, that one doesn't have any direct benefits, and no clear ending point either. That makes it unattractive to spend time on right now. With my sleep schedule as disrupted as it is right now, too, I am finding myself without a lot of good writing time. So, I have to work that out somehow.

Anyway, not really asking for advice, just venting and working on getting myself actively onto this platform again. I hope that you are well.

Comments

[digitalsidhe]

Good to see you again. Looking forward to more.

[wire_mother]

I'm hoping. Tried this four years ago and it didn't take. Who knows, though?

[staxxy]

quick reminders, not really advice because I know you actually know both of these things (thus, reminders):

- depression symptoms include exhaustion/extra tired / being exhausted/not sleeping regularly can cause depression. wheeeee circular logic of the body is dumb! But there it is. Not news to either of you.

- winter in the PNW means even less sun than we usually get and that means less vitamin D. Supplements and full spectrum lights, or even just upping how much milk you drink these days might help. I mean, salmon (or any fatty dark flesh fish) is also a good source but that adds up stupid fast.

There's also B12 can elevate energy & mood because it helps your body absorb oxygen, and you are probably already aware of that too.

reminders. Having fallen down a similar rabbit hole in my own world now and then, I know how easy it is to forget these things.

THAT SAID, I am glad you are going to post here maybe regularly. I am attempting to post regularly here too. I am stymied by technical issues (literally... you can read back through the last couple of posts I have made for details, I am mostly not posting with length).

also... OMG ITS COLD. meh.

do you have/use discord?

[wire_mother]

I've been taking 10,000IU of D3 a day in supplements, not counting milk. That's what got my depression under control a couple of years back, and it's been great (if a little disconcerting to discover how easy the solution was)! Until the last month or so.

Getting back onto something like my current preferred sleep schedule turned out to be a lot easier than I'd feared, so that's good.

I've looked at Discord, but it's yet another site to learn. People want me on Twitch, Discord, and who knows what all else. I might do Twitch because it's a better solution for the creators than YouTube at the moment (what with the crazy demonetizing over insane things), but I don't know what Discord offers that Skype doesn't, and I'm not really getting into the Skype groove.